I loooooved having three boys. Loved. My oldest was weeks from 5 and my middle was 27-28 months when ds3 was born.
We had some odd man out because ds3 was a Lego destroying baby. But in the last year they have become Lego building pals. Quite a team!!
We have lots of squabbles and arguments too. You know, over precious Lego pieces mostly.
Adding DD has been an absolute blast. The three of them adore her. She's quite the doted on girl.
By most accounts I have easy labors. They are fast. I was kind of traumatized by DS3 and more so with DD. But my pregnancies are rotten with morning sickness until birth.
This is the longest I have gone without getting pregnant again. For various reasons. Some due to sickness during pregnancy. Some because we want a bigger gap if we have more. Some due to possible foster adoption. Life is tellin. Us to wait. Maybe forever? We don't know.
Hugs, mama. Pray. Keep asking questions. If your heart is feeling like someone is missing.... Maybe they are.