[swimming with sharks]

Originally Posted by GentleMomof4

This is me. It's horrible to watch yourself spiral and, for whatever reason, not be able to stop it.

BUT...the good news is YOU CAN. You CAN choose to stop....right in the MIDDLE of an UGLY, STUPID, RANT at that little kid who has stepping into who knows what. Just stop....and PRAY OUT LOUD.

Jesus I've lost my patience/temper/I feel so bad right now. I need YOUR help. Please help me be patient and kind. In Jesus' name. Amen.

I know it sounds silly and SUPER simple, but as an adult WE CAN control ourselves. I found myself doing this, watching from outside my body being like WHAT AM I DOING??? How can I stop and one day it just hit me. Just STOP....It's REALLY hard to do it, but the first time you do it, you'll feel SOOOO incredibly POWERFUL...like JESUS is right there holding your hand helping you step on the slippery rocks. It gets easier each time and pretty soon, you see yourself stopping before you start screaming. You'll make mistakes and I find yelling is an easy habit to slip back into when I'm tired, expecting too much, frustrated with something/someone else. I hope no one thinks I'm making light of their burden, this is just one of the BIGGIES that has worked for me in the past.

I also have a big hand lettered sign on the refrigerator that says, "Don't FEED THE BEAST, take a deep breath" I will not be a tool used by Satan to hurt my children to the best of my ability.