[Amy]

I've only gotten to the 12th page and am because I'm a yeller. A huge huge yeller. Everything under the sun sets me off. I am very self aware and spent most this evening crying because I didn't think I could take it anymore (my spiraling in my yelling). I was begging Jesus to change my heart. That was as i was making dinner. Then something happened. Not immediately but by the time the kids and I sat down for dinner (dh ran late) I was much calmer and delt with the dinner and bath routine with a much better attitude and by myself even. There were issues when ds1 and dd were suppose to be brushing their teeth and I had to yell up the stairs (so that they could actually hear me from the bottom, not because I was angry) for ds to go to his room while dd finished, then I sent dd to her room so Ds could finish. Normally I would've been angry and yelling and all kinds of ick. I'm hoping this is the beginning of something better. This thread will be an awesome way to keep me accountable. Thank you for starting this.