How to parent patiently when you need to grieve
So my grandma is dying. I'm having lots of big feelings, of course. I have zero patience for sunshine's insistence on tackling me and her sister. I have no patience for her refusal to listen when I say "stop sitting on the baby's head"
I want to scream and yell because I'm so angry and sad and I can't deal with them because I keep yelling at them. Dh shoul be home soon. I'm going to go get in the tub-locking the door behind me. I need to be alone to process a little. I need some quiet still time.
I have apologized so many times and told sunshine I'm very sad because grandma is dying. We've talked about how she will sleep until Jesus comes back and how she will not be hurting anymore. We've talked about memories of her. We've played "dead guy"
I'm trying so hard to help her process I'm not doing it myself. She's seen me cry and hugged me and said she was sad too. It was very sweet. Then she tackled her sister and wouldn't let go despite her sister asking her to stop.
How do I parent when all I want to do is lay in bed and cry?
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I'm Megan (ENFP, DYT Type 1)
Married since 2007 to my Apple-geeky artist Don (INTJ)
Mommy to Lydia (1/08) "Nature is really dirty"
Charlotte (7/10) "me am not chawlotte me are batman"
Introducing Nolan January 11, 2014
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