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Originally Posted by Codi
What about this scares you?
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I have emetaphobia. It doesn't bother me so much when the kids throw up if it's not contagious but I am afraid of me throwing up, which obviously I could catch it. When I was a little girl (6 or 7) there was a little girl in my class who had brain cancer and also my uncle had terminal cancer and a friend of my mom's had cancer. So between that I knew way too much about cancer and one thing I knew was chemo made you throw up. So I drew the connection between throwing up=-cancer=death (the little girl in my class died, as did my uncle) and logically I know that isn't the case but it's imprinted on my subconscious that way. Almost 30 years later and it's still there that way and I can't "erase" it. I can remind myself over and over that if I throw up I won't die from it. I know I won't. And yet it's the end of the world to me. I haven't thrown up since I was 12 because I just don't let myself do it, but yet I'm still not completely sure of my ability to not let myself throw up so I know I still might.